** NB: The following thoughts are still in progress…..
As some of you may know, on Saturday I had the opportunity to have a professional photo shoot done at one of Sydney’s top studios. I was terrified, but did it anyway. (A side note – I’ve often found that the things that terrify me the most also bring the greatest joy…). It was what the studio referred to as a “fashion photo shoot”, complete with professional hair, makeup, and styling.My photograhper was a guy named Andy. I know it’s part of the job, but he was lovely, genuine, and easy to talk to.
I don’t know about you, but insincerity is quite easy to spot, and I didn’t “pick up” on any insincerity on his part at all. Over the course of the morning, I had a team of people working to make me look my best, and feel my best. The hair & makeup artist made me look prettyful, and Andy’s job was to make me look good on camera. One thing that surprised me though, was how much weight I gave to comments from the photographer; things like “I love it when you smile – you have such a beautiful smile”, “wow – your eyes look incredible”…compliments from a stranger, that are now gems hidden in my heart. Needless to say, I came away from that photo shoot on a high – and even today, 4 days later, I still smile when I think about how much fun I had. But over the past 4 days, I’ve been asking myself why the compliments from the photographer, from a complete stranger, held so much weight. It surprised me, and still surprises me, how those few words made me feel. Growing up in a Christian family, and having attended Church for my whole life, we’re always told that “it’s not what’s on the outside that counts, but what’s on the inside”. That IS true. But to have someone, who doesn’t know you at all, compliment you on your external appearance? I still don’t have an answer to my ponderings. However, one thing that concerns me about my reaction is why don’t God’s words of affection toward me make me respond in the same way? Where do I recieve my self-worth?
That thought unsettles me somewhat. Last night Ps B spoke on “Being a Lover” at our young adults program. (if/when it’s up on iTunes, I’ll post the link here). It further added to the ponderings in my head. Those thoughts are still in progress….and may end up here later. We’ll see. So…..any thoughts?